"Negative Blog"

I am confessing right up front that this will probably be termed to be a negative blog. I guess its to be judged from the "eye of the beholder". There is a season for everything according to the bible and for me it is my season to talk from the heart.

I am intelligent enough and after several hours of psychology in college, I have finally accepted that life is a matter of choices. It is to that cause that I am making some difficult choices.

I wonder how people can tell if they are open minded. I have always felt that I was fairly open minded. If not immediately, then give me time to look at the big picture. How can we know that we are being loving and forgiving even when others disagree. The answer to those questions would need to be answered by track records of the people involved. Unfortunately, we set those track records over the years by our actions - good or bad - young or old - I feel that is why our reputations are to be one of our most treasured assets.

The longer I live the more important God has become in my life and I try to live by his standards. Those standards - to me - mean being loving, non-judgmental and most of all forgiving.

I have said all of the above to say this: I am admitting that I am getting older, definitely more tired, and unfortunately not to healthy so my choices are going to be from this day forward to first follow my God, next use my energies to live these few last years in a positive and happy environment. That may mean making some very painful decisions and learning to accept things I cannot change along with the wisdom to know the difference. I have to learn to accept circumstances that I had no part in making and no success in fixing. You can't fix a flat tire by continually working on the wrong tire.

Please don't think this is a doom and gloom proclamation just a heart felt statement!