"Change"

Change is an interesting word. It is often one of the scariest words one can use (or hear). I have heard that change just for change's sake is not productive. I wouldn't know since most of the changes I meet are thrust my way without my knowledge and often my consent. However, God did grant me the intelligence to realize that it is up to me as to how I react to that change is totally my responsibility.

What has brought about these reflections of holidays past and how holidays in the future will change. For instance, Grandkids get married, have kids and then begin to make their own memories with their mom. This occurs when spouses have gone different directions and it makes it difficult to merge all these changes. Then sometimes, grandkids get so far away that they are here in my heart only. I totally realize the time has come for all of these things to come into play but it still doesn't make me like it.

Our Xmas this year is going to be quite different. Maybe Gerbeans and new family will be here, but his prior family won't. Maybe Ztuffy will be here, hopefully CO kids will be here but at the time it is sounding pretty quiet especially if the Texans don't get to come. Thanksgiving is going to be almost non existent unless the Texas kids get to come (hopefully).

Well, all the medical tests are in and reviewed for me. Thank goodness. While the news may not be too good at least I know what I am dealing with. The ultrasound showed that the left two chambers of my heart and left ventricle are enlarged (congestive heart failure). The pulmonary test showed no improvement. The blood work was acceptable. CT scan of the lungs showed no cancer, mamogram showed still just the seven cysts. The bone scan showed osteoporsis of the spine but so far so crippling effects. So all in all for my age that is a pretty good report. Enough of that!!!

The son here (G) is hopeful that he has a job. He will know tomorrow. Gerbeans is working at the cemetery. Ztuffy sure needs a part time job, maybe he will see that need soon.

B is out of the hospital again. We think his time is limited. He is now passing out frequently, just stops breathing. We went Friday night for a visit and Alien is on the phone with him now.

Well, it is getting late and I am not making much sense so I had better hush.